Hey Baby........

Would you like a sip of my HOT chocolate?

























My daddy says I'm not ready to date boys!

So it is Saturday

I'm freakin' bored and pissed and my leg hurts.

My leg hurts because I had laser surgery on a vein on Wednesday. Its sore and bursed but I'm told the end results are well worth it. They better be because in about a year from now I have to have the other leg done.

So I'm pissed because I think my daughter has a milk allergy like an all of a sudden thing. My husband thinks I'm nuts and that she might just have a stomach bug. She is 11 weeks old. I'll save you the gorey details of the consistancy etc. I've decided to wait and call the doctor on monday since she isn't screaming in pain or uncomfortable her poop just likes weird. I'm probably being a hypo but I guess that is what mothers do.

After everything I've been through with this whole breastfeeding issues, then the C-Diff and now this I'm just at my witts end. There are days I feel like a shitty mother because something that is suppose to be so natural just isn't for me. I should be thankful that I have healthy wonderful children who love me, snuggle with me and make my life a better place. I guess its just still all the hormones and emotions of everything.

To top it off, I'm sick of this cold weather BS!! I want to get out and take my kids for a walk and do stuff. Instead we are stuck in the house. Plus my DH is leaving Sunday night for a business trip and isn't coming home until Thursday. Whoopie! I'm a trooper, I'll survive......with beer and wine and lots of it.

Ok, so I just tried to upload a picture it didn't work.......grrrrrrrrrrr I wanted to share my lovable, snuggable babies. Anyone...help?? Oh she's awake its going to have to wait anyway...

Let the day begin

Well I made it back. Not as quickly as I wanted too but I'm here. I'm going to try to make an effort to post often as I need an outlet lately.

So my day began at 5am as it has been the past week. I forgot that a 3 month old gets up so early because there little tummy is growling from hunger. Ellery is such an angel. She doesn't cry for mommy to come feed her in the morning, she talks to me. It is sweet. Then when my little man, who isn't so little anymore gets up I hear. "Hi Mommy, I wake now!! Go downstairs Mommy." I'm EXAHUSTED but when I hear his little voice and her little coo's I melt and completely give in to whatever they want.

So as tired as I may be today, our day begain at 5am and Nicholas' at 6:30. ROCK ON!

~ B

PS. I'm working on uploading pic's and making this blog more fun, a little each day!

WAHOOOOOO

Well, its been a long road since April.

I thought I lost this wonderful blog but apparently I didn't. A lot has happened in life and I'll post some updates soon. I just wanted to make sure things were cooking.

I'LL BE BACK I PROMISE!

Beaner